California….

He wants to go. He is ready. 4 weeks… 26 days early. I am counting the minutes the hours until he goes…. I have begged… I have pleaded. I have made contracts with God. It is all in vain. He wants to leave.

I am not his dad… nor his lackadaisical life there. I am harder and more real. And he resents me for it all.

All the foundations

the love

the plans

the nurturing

the nursing

the dreams…

all of them… are just that…. what they were.

And I am so sorry for it all…

and left with nothing but regrets.

I can’t make him understand.. or feel….

but I do

and it is killing me.

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